Moving On, worth reading.

Just a random blog post.
So today I was catching up on my mounds of homework that are due to trips i have taken and the missed days of school and work have made my grades look like I've never studied or read a book in my life, and I, in my head, started procrastinating a little. Don't worry all my homework is done, extra credit, make up work, and actual home work (well i'm working on english when i'm done with this, the reading is almost done thanks to audio books). Any way, so my mind started wondering and my eyes wandered around the room and I kept looking at things in my room that I could or could not take with me to college. I think I'll take my NYC posters and my little ones of Carnegie Hall and Wicked, and I'll take my  Carnegie Hall program that has my name in it, along with the pictures/picture frames I have of senior trip and last years Chamber choir, but I think I'll leave behind my Lady Gaga poster and my painting of Peter Pan. I don't want someone ruining that in Fredonia.
Anyway this has a purpose. It's not a laundry list of what i'm taking with me to college.  I looked at my bed and thought, "wow, these really lame japanese fake kanji bedsheets from when i cared about that stuff in 7th grade are really lame and I don't want to take them to college", so I think I want to buy new bed stuff for college, because I want to have a dorm that looks like the ones they advertise even though they don't come that way.
Point is, is now I actually have a date in my callender where I am going to sit down and make a wish list of dorm room materials. After I made the date on my mac I realized how totally WEIRD it all was, just that I was actually thinking about this, that I signed my slip of paper that my dad is going to mail out that says, "Yes Fredonia, stop sending me 'COME HERE!' mail, I'm going to your school and you better like it. TAKE MY MONEY!" It's weird to think that in a few months I won't be here anymore. I'm not sad. things that I love are turning rotten and sour and becoming corrupt by people who don't have the willingness to put the love into the same things that I put in. Chamber for example. I remember 2 years ago, heck, last year, we cried often in class because we didn't sing notes, we made music. We sung songs to Mrs. Shaver about her retiring and she never realized that we sung for her, and even now the memory of that music makes me fight tears. this year I have no such luck in drawing up memories that bring tears to my eyes. So though I hate to leave things like Chamber, and the drama club, and Tech Crew, I'll be happy to say goodbye.
I'll visit, but,  I certainly don't want to stay. not for the world.

Destiny-

So I had an actual written response to this that was better thought out that what I'm writing now, as now my brain feels like a scrambled mix of tired and incoherent script words and lord of the rings mythology. So i'll try my best to get something that actually makes sense into this blog, and so back to what I was saying, I left said sheet of paper with said written response, at school, in my english binder.
So, I think destiny plays a huge part in the lord of the rings books. For me it is really hard to argue this point without saying, "it's a book! The character's are controlled by destiny because destiny is the author, tollkien, is destiny. The characters can't travel outside of the writers mind and can't do anything he doesn't want them to do." But when you talk about the idea that literature is a mirror of real life, the only way you can continue to argue this is if you bring god into the argument- and I don't want to do that. If you bring God into the argument then the argument isn't about The Ring, or Frodo, or Lord of the Rings, or literature. It becomes an argument about God. So lets talk about destiny.
I want to write something that is an actual response not me just rambling on about how something can't be, as above. I think I should give my english teacher a bit of a break on my really long blogs.
So if we forget that the characters in lord of the rings are simply characters, if we think that they are in fact on earth and no controlled by a writer, then we can actually talk about destiny. With everything said, I still think destiny plays a big part in the story, and in literature and therefore our lives. I think we wouldn't be having this blog assignment and wouldn't have spent days of talking on destiny if destiny didn't play a role. Free will and destiny can be intertwined, I think. A lot of people say one thing and then you can argue "well what about free will" well... What about it? Why can you not have free will and destiny. I don't think destiny means that something is grabbing you and forcing you through life and you make these choices so you end up from point a to point b and you don't actually have any choice. I don't think that's true. To properly explain what is going on in my head, say for a moment, that destiny is a person. So you are born, and destiny and standing at the end of your life, at age 15, after a car accident. And destiny thinks, ok, this is how it's gonna be. But you, at age 15 decide that you don't want to go make up with your 17 year old boyfriend because he was a jerk, so you don't get in the car that destiny thought you'd get in and get in a car crash, that doesn't happen. YOu go into your house and you life till a ripe old age. People are wrong. So if we say destiny is a person, then can destiny be wrong? Why can't it be wrong? why can't you start out having a set destiny, but free will changes your destiny. I don't think it was every anyones destiny to end up homeless and hungry on the streets of L.A.
I hope I made sense.  I don't know if I answered the blog post like I was supposed to.